Your story resonates with me. Started @ 32, Always vodka, how you’ve progressed or regressed to all day, every day, drinking in the car. I’ve had 4 real attempts @ sobriety over the last 14 years. 11 months sober, tried to moderate, 8 months, tried to moderate, 7 months, tried to . . . you get the picture. Now 9 months sober & am committed to never, EVER, drink again. The key for me is EXERCISE. Daily exercise. Start slow. Even 10 minutes of walking. Each day it will get easier & you increase the intensity, either by increasing the duration or the speed. The key is the program must be SUSTAINABLE. Otherwise, you won’t be CONSISTENT. I guarantee you will be running 2 miles straight within 3 months. Add strength training with weights when you feel ready. Start slow like with the walking. One good set per exercise. Start with 2 exercises & gradually add exercises. And DON’T DRINK. Good luck on your journey.