It's just so baffling, cunning, why and how my mind wanders into the land of the AV and in the moment I can't seem to stop it.
You forgot the
"powerful" part, but it sure sounds to me like at least
something from AA
stuck. Thanks for sharing with us here at SR, PinnacleOR.
I think DriGuy stated it very well, as did others who posted.
Thoughts and prayers on what is hopefully your last Day 1 - you can do this. You don't ever have to drink again. The choice is yours.