Glad you posted. We are all supportive of you.

Our AV is deadly to us and it might be a battle in the mind every five minutes. It keeps up until we cave in.

My drug of choice is marijuana and I have tried saying I will only smoke at night but find I am getting high with my coffee in the morning and stay high from then on.

I have to to admit I am powerless and can’t fight it on my own. I need to turn it over to that higher power.

The fact that that you are here is great. Best wishes