Thanks for your replies.
I know it will take time to prove myself
I know also that I wasn't a paragon of virtue before I started drinking, so do not expect to magically become one now I have stopped. But outright sabotage when I am trying to build bridges, didn't expect that either.
I've calmed down a bit now. At least I'm trying to be a better person, I cannot control what people say about me, or think of me. Just a shame she has put a wedge between me and my son when I was hoping to begin mending things with him
Now she gets to be the poor, wronged little victim and I get to be the person who is as foul sober as drunk in his eyes.
At least sober I can see her dirty lies.
I wonder how many times before she has lied and said I've said things I haven't, but I've been blacked out and can't remember if it was a lie or not and grovelled an apology for something I never said