Hi Bodhi,
This experience could be the best thing that's ever happened to you. My own journey had a couple of false starts and relapses. Although I was given knowledge and tools to live a better life my laziness and ego got in the way. "What's with these people being so preachy, I got this all figured out". Yeah right.
The hell on earth that was the last withdrawal I went through was a real eye opener for me. After surviving that (and I don't want to know how close I came to not surviving) I realized I had two choices: WORK a plan of recovery or sit around twiddling my thumbs until I relapsed and died.
I'm proud to say that I've been blessed with a happiness greater than anything I could have imagined. If you use this event as the catalyst for your own recovery I am absolutely confident you will know this happiness as well.
Thank you for your story. It has further strengthened my resolve never to touch alcohol or drugs again.