2 days and 10 hours since my last drink. Feeling the waves of anxiety right now. I hate this. At the store getting food for Easter dinner and basically had to run through and get out as fast as I could. Don’t worry, no alcohol was purchased. Sitting in the car drinking a bottled water right now trying to catch my breath. Found an old journal today from almost 7 years ago where I was writing the same thing. The anxiety, the feeling awful, the wanting to quit. I can’t belive I’ve let myself drink for this long. I cannot continue this destructive path. More determined then ever. Going to start driving in a minute. Empty my groceries, make a dessert as planned with my kids for our Easter dinner and then shower, make some tea and read. I’m literally planning every second, although that really didn’t help me this weekend. Reading my old journal has really opened my eyes to the progression and of this disease.