Thing to remember is your AV is telling you a drink will make you feel better. Youre remembering the times it did- briefly.
The days of a nice one or two hour respite are GONE.
For us, we have crossed the invisible line. We go directly to HELL.
Your AV will try to convince you to do more "research". It will tell you maybe this time it will be different.
Try to remember all the times drinking led you to a terrible place.
Dont believe the lies that alcohol will take your distress away and make it all better.
All lies.
You can breathe and let this pass