I gave up on resentment. I am over it.
I had so much resentment going on and it was tied into my drinking.
I would rationalize, I am partying and the people i hate are missing out. Crazy.
Now I think, I am a non drinker. Strong of mind and body. The people that I perceive to cause me ill will and still drinking are weaker of mind and body. I flipped the switch.
I also take full responsibility for my situation. I have made so many mistakes that I am exactly where I should be. I have had successes as well and because of them I am where i should be.
I do my best each day. That equates to whatever I can muster. Anything more is trying too hard. There is no anything less.
I have forgiven all those that I feel harmed me because of the above. I forgive, but I don't totally forget. I know there are folks that will consider my forgiving nature a weakness and use it to hurt me again.
For those whom I have hurt, rather than offer verbal apologies, I show my regret through my actions.
I give as freely as I can and expect nothing in return.
The rest I leave up to God.
That is how I have been rolling lately and it feels right.
Thanks for the post.