Marg,
Living my life nearly drug free is liberating. I say nearly because I drink coffee and tea, take vitamins, and lately have been eating a spoon of moringa in the am. Also, I eat healthy stuff like spinach, yogurt, quality proteins etc.
I get a little buzz off each of those. I also get high on life and exercise. Natural opiates.
I also can feel when my BP is down and when it goes up. I feel it around my temples and other areas. Certain foods and situations now cause it to vary.
So, I am booze free etc, but still a drug addict in a healthier sense.
My BP, anxiety etc etc...are all better, so I know I am doing the right things.
When I eat fast food, cookies and cakes etc. I feel like hell. Sort of like a hangover. Sugar still haunts me like booze used to. Yesterday, I had a donut, 3 cookies, and 2 chocolate Graham crackers. I was in heaven during each bite.
Baby steps.
Thanks.