Not even desperate
I am 7 days booze free. One month opiate free and 4 days nicotine free. I reached a point where all the addictions were feeding into each other, so decided I have to give them all up. The booze had me so isolated and full of self hate, I didn't even have enough about me to feel desperate, was beyond that, was broken. I'm in the process of clawing my way back up the addiction abyss I have been lost in for decades. It's hard, but doable I hope, no I know it is. Looking forward to participating in this wonderful site as part of my claw back to life. Thank you for reading