Originally Posted by
Tetrax 
To be honest Dee, deep down, I know I'm experimenting. 'Cause I know if I don't go low enough now, then future me will tell me I'm not an alcoholic.
Basically I'm in the process of trying to prove to myself that I am one so future me can't deny it. If that makes sense?
Having said that, I didn't realise the withdrawals would be so bad: I guess, because I was always in denial.
But I guess the core of it is trying to find out WHO I AM. Basically because WHO I HAVE BEEN for the my whole adult life has been this guy who drinks (and who believes his whole social/love life depended upon that fact). And I'm finding that identity hard to let go.
no offense,but you were blaming your roomates(who shared their blow) for going to bed with their girlfriends instead of going to buy booze the other day..you were awake and bitter as hell. What are you waiting for,exactly?
I had to 'get over myself' to get sober..
Edit: I,kinda, apologize for being direct.. It's how I talk.