The more years I drank the worse the post drinking anxiety despair depression and paranoia got.
Its part of something called alcohol kindling. Our withdrawals affect us mroe and more and last longer and longer.
Its not fun. I remember being crushed by depression and disappointment.
I know it's obvious but maybe it needs saying - you don;t have to deal with this post drinking stuff if you decide to not drink anymore.
You can use the memory of how you feel now to help you make better choices in future.
You can find help and support to help you stay sober and to help you make the changes in your life that reflect your desire to be sober
You can stay sober - if you want, and you're prepared to do what it takes. I absolutely believe that
You may not feel great right away but you will feel better than you feel now
My mental health has never been better. I really hope you decide to aim for change Hope
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