Sorry you are feeling this way, I too feel the same way. But I know once this poison is out of my system and I get back on track with eating better and exercising, I will feel better about myself. Last year I was sober for four months. I lost 40lbs just eating healthier and drinking water. No extra exercise besides trying to get my 10,000 steps in a day. After falling off the wagon, I gained it all back and then some. So I completely feel I let myself go. I keep telling myself I am only on day 2. We need to keep reminding ourselves of the big picture and where we will be if we stay on the right track. Try taking a shower, make some tea or coffee. I did that today and it really lifted my spririts. It's amazing what a shower and some fresh clothes and make up can do. We got this!