I was in Al Anon before and found it helpful but not as helpful as SR because I was too shy and unable to speak to anyone. I listened the whole time, didn’t share. I’m looking into it here but my community is too small for me to be comfortable, so I’d have to go to another town, which I’d do. Working the steps would be really helpful to me.

I don't understand why being invovled with an active alcoholic intensifies my depression and anxiety but you’re right that it does. Maybe it’s because on a quantum level, there’s a huge energy imbalance. He sucks energy; I give it.

On the surface, I wasn’t in denial. I was aware I was in an unhealthy relationship and wasn’t doing anything to stop it. But more deeply, I am only just piercing the denial about the cost of this relationship to my life.