Hang in there PMTIH. Look down the road. Someday soon your child will be grown and it will be just you. You still want to be happy and healthy right? Staying sober is for you. For the long long term. Kids wanting to be with both parents is a very natural and normal thing that should not be a trigger for you any more than the sun coming up. Unless it is not safe for your child to be with his or her other parent. Even then your child's feelings are normal. Stay with us PMTIH. I feel like you are really trying hard and about to turn the corner to feeling better.