thanks for all the kind words. heh...and today is 37 months!!!
I'm really proud of that.
If I can do this, anyone can.
I was, I think, the worst kind of drunk. I was always rationalizing and trying to analyze my way out of this mess.
For a long time I really thought I could beat it. That perhaps I could out think it, taper off it, medicate myself through it....no..no...nope.
The smartest thing I ever did was get super simple about the approach.
I was physically addicted.....I went to the hospital
I had issues...I got therapy.
I wanted to drink early on. I didn't no matter how bad at times I wanted to.
In the end, I just had to hang in there long enough for the insanity to stop and the demon to get weak because I was gonna be relentless about this.
Then one day I stopped obsessing about it and now It almost never crosses my mind.
I'm always saying "Everyday I talk about recovery but I almost never think about drinking." It's a peace I hope everyone one day gets.
Life is good. Not without some scary F'in s#it...but I'm a lot better at managing it than I used to be.