Hi Torii
sounds like your hoping you'll sort of just grow out of it?
I have no experience with that, but I do genuinely wish you well.
I do have experience with 'drinking is better than feeling like this' tho - my inner addict got a lot smarter and more nuanced as the years went on.
The method of persuasion changed but the end result - me drinking again - was the same.
I had to stop drinking entirely, for good - and I had to think that way because once I drank again I'd be lost to the madness.
I had to use this site at least every day, if not multiple times, a day.
My whole life was geared to drinking - and I couldn't stay sober without at least making significant changes to that life.
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