Originally Posted by
getright15 
My why question at the end is more of a why cant I maintain sobriety. .
And my answer would still be the same ;-) There is no logical answer as to why you can't maintain your sobriety - you have to simply accept that drinking any amount of alcohol is not an option. Doesn't matter if its' 1 day, 1 month or 1 year after you quit. Perhaps you get complacent after a while? I know I did and went back to drinking many times after a period of not drinking.
Your sponsor gave some good advice I think - and it would have applied to me too. I for years tried to make the world change for me - figured I was somehow different or unique and that the rules that applied to other addicts shouldn't apply to me. Once I accepted that they did things got a whole lot more manageable.