Great advice all around. My why question at the end is more of a why cant I maintain sobriety. I want it. My family wants it. I've been given chance after chance it seems. Minimal consequences compared to what could've happened. I spoke with my sponsor today, and just like hes told me before "just do it". I've had 9 months, 6 months and 3 months multiple times. I can still salvage what I currently have. I easily could be homeless, carless, and all the other lesses out there. Still facing even 6 months if I get in trouble with law I still got drunk and got pulled over. Crazyness has to stop. I'm even at my own wits end with me, so I can imagine my family.