I should go to the meeting and ask for a sponsor. Last time a decent guy got me the Big Book, he seemed like 'sponsor material'. If that's a thing? I don't know. AA I kind of think is cool and kind of think is f***ing so f***ing weird I don't know what to think. I haven't bothered reading the book. Something holds me back from getting too involved. I just can't commit to anything, I guess.