Welcome to SR fineartshooter! Posting more was the best thing I ever did, getting involved with this community really helped keep me on the right track. It can be done and we've all been where you are right now. Why don't you join the monthly class which is full of folks starting on their sober journey this month. It's where I started and chatting with peeps that were going through the exact same challenges and at the same stage as me was worth it's weight in gold! You can do this! xx