You must remember:
abstinence does not equal
control. Just because you haven't drank in a while doesn't mean you've 'learned' to control your drinking. I've been here 11 yrs and never once seen anyone who stopped drinking for a time and then could drink 'socially'.
Most stories like that are that they started out ok but soon slipped back into the old drinking habits.
And some have come back after horrible events, like DUIs and other issues.
I hope you can come to celebrate your recovery instead of focusing on what you're 'losing'. I've been sober over nine years and never once have I woken up sober and wished I had drank the night before.
I would also suggest that you start to practice gratitude every day. Do that for a while, until it becomes a habit, and see if it changes your life.
