Chris,
Meds are another addiction. But, if I need them, I need them.
I will always crave the buzz. I get it these days through coffee, moringa, exercise, doing good deeds, etc.
My job requires strict requirements so if I went on most post drinking meds, I was legally done with my awesome carreer.
I suffered like I can't explain. This suffering caused ptsd. But, after all this time i am way way way way better.
Being this clean is unlike anything I can ever recall. Being a super clean ex drunk adult is extremely liberating.
I trust my feelings and decisions 100% and take full responsibility for the damage I have done to myself and others as I made my way to this day in my precious life.
I only get one go at physical presence on this planet, I plan to do the 50 years or so stone sober. I don't want to miss another minute.
Proudly sober.
Happy Saturday.
Thanks for the therapy.