Jeff when you post like that here you're gonna get hotline numbers man.
Please think about calling them - or at least talking to someone - If n ot a hotline or a doctor or counsellor, maybe a friend?
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ease-read.html
I know that you've been taught, like me, that men don't ask for, or need, help, but that's just BS man.
No one has all the answers all the time. Its not weak to ask for help - it's a strength,
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