Hi zombiegirl, it sounds like you’ve had enough, which is a great start! I had several relapses before finally getting sober. What it took for me was really focusing on changing myself - my thoughts, habits and behaviors. Therapy was tremendously valuable and I also continue to do yoga, meditstion, running and exercise. These have all replaced drinking behaviors and I am so much happier.
Have you thought about a long term sober plan for yourself?
I highly recommend the book, Naked Mind by Annie Grace. She also has a 30 day alcohol experience to which you can Google to find online. I love her! I also loved reading Russell Brands book, Recovery, Freedom from our addictions. There’s a lot of great reading material on addiction and recovery.
No need to explain why you aren’t drinking. People can wonder and be curious all they want. That’s none of my business. But if you have to say something, why not “I feel better without it.” I so,etimes say “it doesn’t agree with me anymore.” All true without giving away your life story.