Congratulations on thirty days!
I don't think Antabuse is a crutch, it's an aid to stop drinking. Just like I'm using an aid to stop smoking right now. If it is a crutch, so be it. We're not going to be using these things the rest of our lives just till we get our feet underneath us.
You earned the last thirty days.
There have been plenty of people here who have used it. I wouldn't hesitate to use it myself if I ever went back to drinking.
So be proud of yourself. You deserve it. And think ahead to how you're going to handle things once you stop using it.
AA? Or some other program of sobriety? That's what I would be concerned with. The long term.
Best to you, and keep it up.