Sorry, everyone. Today is 56 days not drinking. The depression did not start until after the first week or so. That first week, I just seemed to think everything was funny, for some reason. Seriously, I'd read something that I normally might think was mildly amusing and I'd just be laughing out loud.
Then it just hit me, gradually at first, then increased over a few days until it's like it is now.
I'll try to ignore it by doing things, like reading a book, watching a show, playing a computer game. But it's always like 'I don't like this book, it sucks. I'll try a different one. Nope, this one sucks too'. Well, everything sucks and that's just the way it is.
Maybe I just woke up older after a 10 year binge and this is normal for my age.