Originally Posted by
Beachn 
The more I think about it the angrier I become.
Seriously. You can’t make this crap up.
Yes. It really does go beyond understanding. It is why we are all here as we found ourselves in some version of what you are experiencing. It just sucks beyond anything.
So good to hear that you are getting therapy and support. I'm not sure what you should do but with time and support you will probably untangle what you need to do next.