I had to give up my idea of control groundhog. I'd tried so many items over 20 year to drink 'like a gentleman' and alcohol always
always kicked my butt.
I changed after that first drink - no matter what my good intent was, it went out the window when I started drinking... because I was insatiable for the stuff.
The only way out of the cycle is not to drink at all.
I know that's scary. It's like your whole life seems like it might slip away...that fear keeps a lot of us drinking and looking for the perfect moderation recipe...
but I can promise you the sober life you gain is more than worth it.
The initial period is not much fun, I'll admit - but it gets better - and you're not alone - you have support here.
Give it a go
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