Groundhog, this is just my opinion, but if you can go back out and drink "normally" in moderation more power to ya. I can't. I know if I have one drink today or in a year or 5 years I will want to go right back to the races. That one drink will not be enough and the 30 or more that follow it will take me right back to the miserable cycle I was in. Much like Evoo I posted on SR for the first time several years ago. My goal was to get a little help and to get some of the people in my life off my back. I didn't want to quit drinking. I cannot tell you how much I wish I had the conviction then that I have now that I cannot drink ever again in any kind of moderated fashion. My life would be very different today than what it is, and I would have spared myself and others a tremendous amount of heartache, disappointment and misery. We each have to walk our own path. Mine is I am a textbook example of this journey ending in jail, in an institution or in death if I go back out.