Originally Posted by
Groundhog83 
Monday...missed work, pissed again last night. Managed 3 days with no booze so celebrated and got smashed. Lying in bed having missed another day of work. New job 2 weeks in 2 Monday’s missed....feel terrible. How can I change my cycle of ****.
It's definitely a rough cycle to be caught in, most of us have been there at one time too.
How do you change it? You make being sober your #1 priority - assuming that's what you want. And you accept that it's never OK to drink any amount of alcohol for any reason.
You also likely need a plan. Think of building a house - you don't just show up on a vacant lot empty handed and start. You have a goal ( the design of the house ) first. Then you have detailed drawings. You have to order all the materials, schedule to have them delivered, secure labor, and so on and so forth.
Getting sober is no different - quitting drinking itself is only the very first step.