Old 02-15-2019, 06:14 AM
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pupper
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Originally Posted by Liveher View Post
Good morning all. Day 4 for me. Feeling okay, still a lot of fear and shame swirling around. I went to a great AA meeting last night. I’m going to attend one today as well. I’m also having dinner with 2 friends who have been sober for a long time. I’m not sure if I’m going to tell them what’s been going on. I know that may sound weird, but one of them has the tendency to gossip and also she might try to take it over, texting and calling me everyday at unreasonable hours, etc. Boundaries tend to be an issue with her. It’s not that I plan to hide it forever, I just need to go at my own pace with disclosing it to people.
I hope everyone is doing okay. Hello to Red and Sky-welcome to the class!
My approach so far has been to tell people in general "I'm not drinking right now." People I trust I've told "I may not drink ever again." My husband I've told "I don't want to drink anymore." I know that I need to get explicit. And I know that I need to start saying "I don't drink anymore - it's no longer part of my life." Part of me feels like I need to hit a milestone before I can say that, but... is that an excuse? A 'get out of jail' card? Regardless - I feel ready to say that I don't drink anymore, I am living a sober life. But a little part of me (this is the alcoholism talking, isn't it?) thinks I should wait until I've proven I can do it.

I know, I'm looking for a meeting as I type.
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