Liveher, thank you for your comment yesterday regarding perimnopause - I don't think that it's contributed to my alcoholism (yikes, using that word about myself for the first time... more honest than saying drinking problem though I think), but I do think it's forced me to take a look at my life, the physical changes I'm experiencing, and what the next 20 years will look like. One quote I read earlier this week was "Do you want to have the same drinking patterns in 5 years' time?" Woof. Nope.