I dranlk that one (330ml) and opened another, took a sip and gave it to husband. Felt sick and headachey.
have spoken to husband before but its complex. Part of him still wants me to drink but not in the way i do now. He did try to stop me. He was upset after when he saw how tormented i was. He said he will try harder.im off to bed now. The positive is that i didnt want to carry on and i stopped. There was no enjoyment in what i drank. Im not going to regret it, Im going to use it to keep me going, to think of it as an important learning building block in my recovery.