Originally Posted by pupper

Coming up on the end of day 4 for me. I watched a friend die from acute liver disease & renal failure over the course of last week (really over the course of our almost 10 years of friendship). The day he died I had my last drink. I'm committed to being sober for myself, my husband, my family, and for my friend who wasn't able to get or stay sober. I'm 45 years old. I don't want to keep asking myself "Am I a problem drinker?" I believe that I am. Grateful to have found this forum. This is my first post here. I'm not (yet?) in the program. My history with alcohol involves binge drinking, and regularly going a week or two without drinking at all. I convinced myself that I wasn't "as bad as" others. I'm here because I've accepted that my life would be better without alcohol.