Good morning, all,
Yesterday was awful, and I am not sure I have recovered. I do some contract work for the Federal gov't, and we are just gearing up after the end of the shutdown. My anxiety kicked in early as there was a snafu when I tried to get onto the military base. That took an hour--enough time for anxiety to begin to begin. I entered the workplace and, before I could catch my breath they brought people in to see me. I never did collect my breath. I took something to eat so I could manage hunger and blood sugar, but I had only about 10 minutes to wolf down a cup of yogurt. It was chaos all around. I cried all the way home. The good news is that I never considered having sugar or binge eating, but I know that I set into play some of my unhealthy habits. It is 10:41 AM, and I still have not eaten today. Not a good thing for me.
I'm not sure where I left off with my food plans, etc. I did not buy any more mandarin oranges, but I am having blueberries at breakfast. I don't feel compelled to binge on those. I'm trying to list foods that are problematic. Sugar & sugar substitutes: No doubt. Beyond that, I am not sure. Cheese? Maybe. Chips? Almost certainly yes. Peanut butter? Yes, but I'm okay with almond butter. A single serve package of pistachios does not lead to craving, but I know I could eat through a large bag if I brought it home.
Like many of you on this thread, I am a recovered alcoholic. Abstinence is a pretty simple concept with regard to drinking. It takes on a new meaning where food is concerned, and I'm still trying to figure it out. I think I need a mid-afternoon snack to manage blood sugar, and the early evening snack sort of puts a lid on the day. It is my shut-down meal. I'm eating regular meals without cravings so far. More will be revealed. Thanks for listening and including me. Hope you all love yourselves today.