Sorry for your situation, but you aren't the first or last to have this happen. You can approach this one of two ways. One is that your life is over, the other is that this is the BEGINNING of a new chapter. You can get your life back, I assure you. But you must do it sober. I was at my wits end, almost lost everything. Got sober and with clear mind straightened it all out. Again, very sorry to hear what happened, I wish you the best.