Sorry to hear that UhOH - like others said you can likely find a ride to the meeting tonight if you give the local hotline a call. And of course SR is here 24/7 too. You might want to think about calling an attorney as well just to be ready should you need one. But above all else, don't drink alcohol. You likely have a long process ahead of you, but what has happened to you has happened to others - and they got through it.