I've thought about this question a lot since my initial response.
The biggest thing alcohol did was it took me from me. I don't like the painful experiences I'm going through as a result of my drinking, but I will say that it is incredibly refreshing and rewarding to be finding myself again now that I am on the path to recovery.
Justice is where you get what you deserve. Mercy is where you don't get what you deserve. Grace is where you get what you don't deserve.