I've been there too. Before work even, though I was likely to call in sick or make some other excuse. Some days I think I just disappeared, let them guess where I was. Truth is I don't even remember all that clearly. And it can get worse. By luck and the skin of my teeth I didn't even up hurting anyone, in jail or worse. The wine became vodka...sigh.
But there's a better life, yours for the taking really.