Don;t overwhelm yourself Doris.
Your one task right now should be to stay sober.
Later on when your mind and body have settled down again you can start to look at yourself and whether you still still you'll broken and what to do about that.
The temptation is to look at how do I fix me first...but trust me its a lot easier to do that a few months down the track when your brains not like swiss cheese and you're off the emotional rollercoaster of early recovery..
Hope you get a good nights rest and that things look better in the morning.
D