Originally Posted by
Snowydelrico 
You’re doing well Doris.
I lost my music for a while too , it reminded me and triggered me too much.
But picked up on other music and different depths.
Johnny cash the beast within.
Nine inch nails ( Trent reznor) everything where it belongs.
These people struggled with addiction Trent got free think cash did too.
Everything is so raw early in sobriety it’s unreal.
The slightest thing sets you off.
It can’t kill you though, only the booze and coke can do that.
Hang in there Doris, weather the storm and be proud.
You’ll be a bigger wiser person for it.
Someone to look up to and admire.
Come on dig deep.
I know you have it in you.
Man i think you get me snownydelrico. How can I move forward??? I'm 47 been here many times, I know the tools, I know how to get my body healthy, I was actually a bit of a fitness freak, but my mind is sick. I could talk till I'm blue in the face, nothing changes, it's still the same, it still happend, it still haunts me. I can't change what's been an done. I can't get closure. Now what???? I faced a few years straight. Man it was horrible. I'm not unstable, I know nothing I could of done would stopped it,
Woah Woah I'm talking to much.
Yes I've helped myself, but you can't stop the nightmares, the damage, the total feeling of desolation man.
So what now 😢😢😢😱