Doris47

So i said to myself I wouldn't count days, think i may of told you lot as well, but here i am on day 10 ������.
Well it's been up an down,round an around. Mood swings from yep i got this, to ohhhh **** it mode.
But I stayed on the bus ��.
Music is a huge, huge part of my life. Always has been from the early acid house years right through. Every track, tune, song has a meaning.
Today marching to the doctors for blood test, I had my head phones in, a track came on that I really, really resonate with.
SIA...........artist
Chandelier.......track title
Stopped me in my tracks an i just cried.......
Like I was mourning for a life lost.
Man it hit me hard..........
I wanted to run to a shop an get wasted. (I didn't)
That track is me......check it out........

I felt completely beaten, because I can't listen to certain music anymore, I've lost it. Music has always been my release, every track I live, I feel.
I'm proud i didn't give in........man I'm proud, BUT the thing is, music is in me. And now I can't listen to it.
Forgive ramblings, but I feel like. ......... I dunno, that drink, drugs, an now music is gone.........
I'm a positive person on the whole, but today I feel a bit broken .........
Tomorrow is a new day, I know. But for now .....man I'm struggling.

Much love to everyone on this journey,because **** me it's hard.
Over an out ���� x