Thank you. I cry almost everyday honestly. It has taken a huge toll on me,few people realize all the pain he has put me through. I use to be happy an he has zapped it all from me. I tried hard thinking if I supported him and loved him he would try harder to get off drugs. It didn’t work,and now I’m too tired. The lies,the stealing,the possible infidelity & just the plain disrespect he has showed me tells me he doesn’t care. I have cried today too. I have this site but that’s it. I don’t leave my house very often and I’m off work until I have the baby. I talked to his mom and I think she is going to try to get him put back in jail. Maybe this is petty or maybe its
not. Maybe some people feel like that’s trying to force him into sobriety but he has already almost died last month from a fentynl overdose. I was the unlucky one who got to find him turning purple and had to call the ambulance. I can’t deal with it anymore. He has a warrant and will be looking at 3 to 5 years for trafficking. The worry I feel every time he leaves is overwhelming. This is too much for me.. I miss being happy. I miss not knowing him or having to worry about him.

Ive been trying to focus on getting things ready for the baby but the baby reminds me of him & then I think about how lonely it’d going to be to raise it on my own and otskese even more depressed. It’s like a vicious cycle. It’s horrible and I dont know how to stop it.