Oh Mango, I really needed your kind words today. I had to go home to get some stuff I needed and I saw him passed out on the bed. I didn't check on him, but just got my stuff and left. Then the panicked thoughts started to creep in: "what if he dies", "I didn't check on him, what if he's dead already", "should I try to help him", "should I call an ambulance", "what's going to happen to him". The worried thoughts just kept coming. I'm trying to stay calm. I had felt so good yesterday. I'm trying to focus on the end point, but I'm just having a hard day today. I will do what you say and "trust". THANK YOU for checking in. The support brings tears to my eyes.