Originally Posted by
Numblady 
Lonely? It’s there. Life full of people? It’s there.
Thanks for this. If I'm truly honest with myself I know it. Wherever my life is I'm gonna wanna drink. And then drink drink drink. But when the chips are down for some reason you don't wanna believe it. And eight years is a long time. I even wrote a novel a couple of years ago (not to sell or anything) hypothesising that real, requited love might get you out of the pit. I just have yet to have had that experience in my life, so I always have this doubt (or - most probably - my AV takes aim and feeds on this doubt).