Sober weekend, a little harder than I thought
I didn’t drink on my weekend away with friends, which was great. I was happy to stay sober and feel good each day we were there and remember everything, but I can’t lie. It was harder than I thought. I was anxious, even though I felt no pressure to drink and logically I didn’t want to. But when everyone was out of the house and it was just me hanging out, I had to move the alcohol out of my line of sight, because it bothered me so much. And I’m not sure if I really wanted to drink it or if I was just sad or angry that I couldn’t or if it’s just years of habits of having a few (dozen) drinks while away with friends and my body and brain were confused of why we weren’t doing that right now... but it doesn’t matter. It was a good reminder to be humble and that this isn’t always going to be easy. Thank you all for posting and giving me something to read and check in on while I was trying to keep busy and process my feelings this weekend. It really helped to come read everyone’s posts.
15 days sober ✌️