Welcome Amin! You're in the right place; a place where we are in no position to judge your past drinking because we have been there and still struggle. However, it is very hard to quit on one's own. I also invite you to join the January 2019 group. It's a great group of people. I have 22 days and my first three weeks was on SR almost as many hours as I was awake. I also listened to podcasts, wrote daily in a journal, and meditated. You can do it one day at a time!