Apparently years ago in AA they would take a really tough stance with newcomers. One guy did a chair recently shared that when he first got into AA he sat in a meeting and said he really didn't want to be there. The guy next to him said "well f$@k off then". Lol. I had to really laugh at that.
I am 9 months into recovery and it has been the hardest thing I ever had to do. I read something yesterday that said
" Stop waiting for around for someone to notice you need help, it's not happening,
No one is coming to save you,
Drop the damsel in distress act and pick up your goddamed sword,
You know you need help,
Get up and make it happen".
I love it. And I wanted to share. I am responsible for myself and my actions. I had to do whatever it took to not pick up that first drink. Nothing will change as long as you keep drinking. If just not drinking is all you can manage then so be it. Just get your head on the pillow sober at night. Forget everything else and just make not drinking your only priority .
Something else I like. "You can carry the message but not the alcoholic."
Get up and fight for your life Sweetie. I know you can do this.
Hugs, strength, love and courage for you.
Xx