Only time will tell and only YOU know the truth of all of this.
Those of us who choose abstinence do so because we cannot drink in moderation. We also choose abstinence because drinking wasn't fun, or wasn't working anymore (only making life messier as opposed to more enjoyable.)
My question to you is, what do you get out of drinking? What is so great about it that you can't imagine your life without out? I used to think life was more fun, conversations more enjoyable, music more amazing when I was buzzed or drunk. Now at 20 months sober I have discovered I am a new person entirely. The person I thought I was is different than the real me and I never would have known that if I hadn't stopped drinking. Music is absolutely amazing sober, so are real friends and real conversations about the things that actually matter in life.
Anyway, that's just my perspective of course.
But again I will ask you, what is it about drinking that you don't want to give up?